It’s always a challenge trying to figure out the wording to a post. Do I just go full force and use complete, brutal honesty for whatever the topic is for that day? Or do I go with a subtle and more easygoing standpoint? I will usually end up asking myself regardless, “Do you actually care whether you sound like Mother Theresa or if you sound like an absolute bitch?” and in the realm of completely honesty, I don’t really give a shit, at all. So I thought about it, and thought about it, and fucking thought about it some more. “What do you want your first REAL piece to be about?” Y’all, want to know what I finally decided? – I’m going to start by asking a question. (Jaw hits floor… it took all that time for a damn question bahahah, just give her up now, hahaha!) Seriously though, it isn’t just “any” question. I wanted it to be one that you really have to put some thought into, in every way possible, before you start throwing out any random answer that you think sounds good. I’m not looking for typical or cliche. You know, the answers everyone uses when they really didn’t want to answer the question in the first place. (Hey genius, if you don’t want to get involved in the topic, don’t answer! Ha! So easy!) So, here we go! Question: Have you ever stopped, even for just one second, to think about the abilities of change that a person has and how said person can use that ability in just one year? (Does that’s make any sense? Lord, I hope so!) Sometimes it can be less than that, because it honestly doesn’t have to take that long at all. Whether they had planned to make the change or it just sort of finally happened. It is still the fact that change ultimately happens whenever you decide you’ve had enough and you get up and you just, change! So many times we tell ourselves “I’ll just do it later.” Or “There will be more time tomorrow.” No. No there won’t. What are you waiting for?! Why keep making excuses? What if there isn’t a tomorrow….
I want to ask those who find me and then intend to stick with me and keep reading my posts, to please try to not take me, the things I say, and how I write them the wrong way. I’ll probably be all over the place for a while. I’m in no way saying that I have my life together and I can promise you I will never say that. I will never claim to be a perfect person or pretend that I don’t struggle on a daily basis with literally everything, just like everyone else. I want you to know I do not pass and will not pass any judgment whatsoever onto anyone. I want you to feel safe here. Always. I’m really hoping to someday form a close bond with you all. Even if I am still contemplating, doubting, and running every possible pro and con that I can come up with through my mind for why publishing this blog is either the greatest idea ever or going to be my biggest mistake. But, seriously what good am I going to do for myself or for anyone else if I just sit around doing nothing. Writing nothing…. How many times have you (or me for that matter) told yourself that you’ll just ‘do it later’ or ‘it can wait until tomorrow’. Later is now, GET OFF YOU ASS! Why waste the time I have left on this Earth, or the ability I was given to use while I am here? I’ve realized quickly how extremely short life is and how soon everything can just be ripped from underneath you without any warning at all. I apologize for bouncing all over the place but I’ve already came to terms with that being one of the ways I get my A.D.D thoughts out there and just pray the people reading can keep up! Ha!
If we were to stop and think about the things that we are all capable of as humans, they’re absolutely limitless. I guess it’s sadly just a matter of how many of us actually decide to lose our complacentcy, stop being terrified of the “what if I fail’s”, finally grow a pair, and decide to take that enormous leap of faith and just do it. Believe it or not, all it truly takes is ONE minute of incredibly insane courage for you to decide that you can do whatever it is you want to do. So with a little encouragement from the people who have always been in your corner and YOU believing in YOU, without any self doubts holding you back, Just start thinking of all the amazing things you, as ONE person, can accomplish. How freaking incredible is that?! And that’s just thinking about it! You haven’t even done anything yet! I’m not talking about the ‘shrugs shoulders’ I’ll believe if I absolutely have to…. because it’s the right thing to do… it’s what I was taught to do in kindergarten – kind of believing’ Nope, nope, nope! None of that at all! (Aren’t you glad we aren’t in kindergarten anymore? Ha!) What this is, it’s the kind of believing in yourself where you know with every single thing you have to believe in, no matter what is thrown your way. What battles you may face. No matter how many times you feel like giving up. Even when the odds are against you. Even when you’ve tried so many times before and failed. Now don’t get me wrong. I’m probably one of the most skeptical human beings on the planet, when it comes to most things, but not all things. (Is that a terrible thing to admit in an inspiration/motivation/whatever you’re here looking for blog? Lord, I hope not. Okay. Just hear me out! I promise I have a point! *she says laughing*) – There are TWO things I have absolutely zero skeptical doubts about – 1.) the power that writing holds – 2.) the power that people hold. (The power YOU hold)! Those my friends are where I am in NO way, shape or form, any kind of skeptic. They are the only two things combined that will make you feel like you are literally unstoppable. But, only if used correctly. Many people take the power they hold for granted. Honestly, most of them don’t even know they have any kind of power at all, how sad is that?! Could you imagine a world without Superman, Batman, or Spider-Man?! Hell no! How boring would our lives be without the utmost famed comic book heroes, ever! *you take the time to think this through* I know right, it would be downright awful. We have all been given a gift, and what we decide to do with that gift well, that just all depends on us.
Everyone needs to know that they have at least one person who will always be in their corner. Standing beside them when it feels like everyone else has turned their backs. When the person in the mirror just forgets to look back, smile, and remind them that everything is going to be alright. Some days it just gets too damn hard to love yourself. Trust me, I’ve been there. I get it. That’s why I turned to writing. This isn’t just an outlet to make you feel better, but it will help us all feel better (I hope). I don’t want anyone to ever feel like they’re alone. I want you to know that you are not alone!
Through this blog I hope to help woman (or just people for that matter) of all ages learn how to love the person that they are, for exactly who they already are – right at this very minute and not for anything other or less than that. I hate the idea that there is anyone struggling to not only love the person they are, but to even like themselves. It absolutely breaks my heart. Now, don’t get me wrong. This is not a self-help blog, because I am in no way trained or capable of actually teaching anyone or anything. I have not been to school for any one specific subject, I do not have a degree in a certain field. What I do have is life experience. Yes, I’m only 26. However, I have been through things in my life that I wouldn’t wish onto my worst enemy. But, I also wouldn’t change a single one of them because what my experiences did – they taught me, molded me, crafted me, and humbled me. They made me into the Caitlin I am today. And for that I will forever be grateful and will NEVER look back. Looking back gets you nowhere, except for an old yesterday and a no good tomorrow. So why even bother with it. Look forward to new and better things while you still can! The world tries to tell us that we have to be greater, prettier, skinner, thinner, taller, shorter…. The fuck are all these “er’s”? Why can we just BE?! Be great, be pretty, be skinny, be fat, be tall, be short, BE US! Why is that so hard for the “world” to accept? I don’t get it, won’t get it, and unfortunately I probably never will get it. I guess that is just one thing to put on my list of questions just to ask the Big Man when He meets me at the Pearly Gates. (If He even lets me in, hahaha!)